In pursuit of a 'Hikaru', JayGrrl has caught the attention of a 'Tamaki.'

Okay, basically all that went on for the past couple weeks has made my heart harder against the guy I had wanted to be with for about two months now. New emotional complications has made me see that my chances for a normal relationship are slim to none. While I will stand by him as a friend, I'm not terribly sure if I can be anything more.

However, a staff member that I had met at the last staff meeting has been hanging out with me a bit. Right off the bat, I could tell how much more comfortable it felt being around him. There seems to be developing feelings; it's the first time a guy has told me he has fallen for me. We both agreed it's too fast too soon, so we're taking a slow approach. After all, we only just met maybe eleven days ago.

I feel like I'm betraying or abandoning the first guy in a way, and being a total hypocrite in another. However, I have learned recently that I have to take my own feelings into account. I do enjoy being around both guys but if a relationship is a desired endpoint, there are better chances with Tama-kun.

Aside from the gash in my head that I receieved at work after I fainted at a register, things seem to be looking up a bit. I better go back to sleep or do something somewhat productive, I have been invited out to Thanksgiving with his family x.x

'If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky... but you can skyrocket away from me and never come back if you find another galaxy from here with more room to fly. Just leave your stardust to remember you by.'